Sharing the News

Well, I haven't written in a long time.

We went to the Doctor on Tuesday - June 22nd. We saw our little bean!! :) And there was a HEARTBEAT!!!!!!!!!!! :) We have never been blessed with either of these things. The heartbeat wasn't quite as fast as they like but the doctor also said that it was lucky to see a heartbeat at all this early. We go back the 28th to check that the heartbeat is increasing! :)

So I've decided to publish these posts because we have told our families and the one friend I know who knows of this blog I also told! :) So no worries about people seeing this blog! :) We are still keeping our news secret from most but I have been getting sick EVERY morning for a week. SO, since we went home this past weekend and my family would hear me getting sick we just decided to go ahead and share the news with our immediate family! It is so nice to have shared! It makes it a little more real and I get to be a little more excited. John and I have the best families in the world!! Beyond supportive!! We love them very much!! We also have AMAZING friends!! VERY FEW know of our news right now but we know those few are praying for us and sharing in our joy!! I love it! :)

My life is so amazing right now! The next couple weeks are going to fly by and then it will be the beginning of August and we'll be able to shout it to everyone that we are pregnant!! :) John just keeps saying - lets get there first...lets get there first! :)

Dear Lord,
Thank you for blessing John and I! We feel very loved by our family and friends and You! Continue to have this little one grow inside of me! Help me be able to povide a good home inside of me until he/she needs to come out! Lord, I pray for all my friends who are getting ready to begin their journeys as mommies. L, C, and K are all due within the next month or two!! I pray you grant them peace of mind as they wrap up their pregnancies and that you continue to bless them and their families! Lord, I also pray for my other pregnant friends who are not getting ready to have their babies in the next couple months but who are still cooking their little ones! Continue to help provide them with what they need!
Lord, I pray for my Grandma as she prepares to attend her brother's funeral tomorrow. Please help my family handle Nick's passing.
Lord, I thank you for the blessing of a friend's babies being born early and yet being able to go home so fast!!! Lord you are amazing!! Continue to bless this friend and bless their new family!!
Lord, I pray these things in Jesus' name!! Amen!

Heart Burn!!!

June 16, 2010 11:31 pm



I LOVE the fact that I have heartburn right now! I NEVER have heartburn. I have only ever had heartburn during my pregnancies...though short I have always had it. So I LOVE that I have it right now...it's slightly reassuring! :)



If I saw blood this morning I haven't seen any since. I took today SUPER easy. But I'm thanking God for my successful day!



I also have felt sick today!! Praise the Lord!! I was queezy most the day but at the end around 9:00 I felt SICK! So I went ahead and headed up to bed to lie down. But I was so thankful for feeling sick! I actually had to cut my bible study time short because I thought I was going to throw up!!



Dear Lord, I'm sure not many pregnant women thank you for giving them heartburn and making them sick - But I thank you with all my heart! It is so reassuring to have those pregnancy symptoms! Tomorrow is a new day. Rest my heart and mind and help me trust in you that everything will be okay. I will make it to my Tuesday appointment and see my little bean with a little heartbeat! Lord, bring on the symptoms again tomorrow!! Thank you for the blessing you have given John and I. Continue to help us be calm during this nerve-racking time and bless us with our little one come February! With all my love! I pray these things in Jesus' name. Amen.

Begging God

June 16, 2010 10:41 a.m.



There was the smallest hint of blood today. I am BEGGING God to help this child be healthy! I am begging God to make the blood go away. I am trying not to freak out - any normal pregnant lady would not have noticed it. But knowing this is how it always starts..... But it was much less than any before so I'll pray and pray and continue to Beg God to grant me this child!



I have a friend who just had twins and they are in the NICU. Praise God they are doing well! I found myself this morning wishing I was even in her shoes. I know she is going through a hard time - and I shouldn't wish that but at least she has her babies!!



This morning I woke up and found a prayer in my inbox from a dear friend. I have only told my best friend and her husband sent me a prayer this morning. Praying for my unborn child. He said he felt like he needed to pray for us so he did. It is so reassuring to know they are praying as well!! I was just thinking last night that I wanted to tell EVERYONE just so I could have the prayers!! You know? And the sad thing is I'm not even publishing this post so even if someone stumbled across this they couldn't pray for me.



I just want this baby so bad!! Please God Please God Please God!!



Dear Lord,

Please, Please, Please, keep this baby healthy. Make the blood go away and continue to nurture this child! PLEASE bless John and I with this child. I cannot go through having to tell John again. I cannot go through it again. I know you only give us what we can handle but Lord I beg you to not make me go through this again. Please Lord! Lord, please settle my heart and calm my nerves. Help me trust in You and know that You will provide me with the strength I need. Lord, I pray again that you nurture my unborn child in my womb and continue to let it grow and survive! I pray all these things in Jesus' name. I love you. Amen.

Bowling and Worries

June 14, 2010 11:45 p.m.



So we went bowling tonight with some friends. The whole time I worried about not over-doing it. I bowled awful becasue I was so scared! Normal pregnant ladies wouldn't have to worry about this...but once you've lost a baby - and then two more - you tend to worry.



With my first pregnancy I remember my mom saying - don't over-do-it --- remember you're caring for two now. And I remember thinking I'm not going to be a wimpy pregnant lady. I'm going to continue my life and not make my husband wait on me hand-and-foot. Well, after that pregnancy my attitude changed. For example, my brother moved in with us and while we were setting up the room I basically "ordered" John around rather than do ANYTHING! I didn't want to put any force on my uterus than what was necessary. I went from being macho pregnant lady to doing nothing prgnant lady. And if it grants me the blessing of my little on in my arms!! I will take it!!



So, the nurse called about my Lovenox shots (I've been saying the wrong thing) the doctor wants to wait till we see a heartbeat. So my appointment has been moved up to next Tuesday afternoon. I will have an ultrasound then see my doctor!! I am praying, praying, praying I make it to Tuesday and everything looks great!!!



I didn't get anything accomplished today....oops! I did however take a 2 1/2 hour nap!! LOL - I was tired! :)



Thanks for staying posted with me!

Love,

Jenna



Dear Lord,

Thank you for this beautiful day and time to hang with friends tonight. Thanks for protecting my little one as we bowled!! I still feel great and I thank you for that. Thank you for the blessing inside me and please protect and keep him/her healthy!! I cannot wait until Tuesday to see our little one, I pray for a happy and healthy nine months and I know all things are possible through you!! Thank you Lord for the blessing of family. I pray these things in Jesus' name! Amen.

God is Amazing!

Alright, here's the plan. I am writing this blog to have my thoughts and feelings down on paper. I plan to print it at the end of the year. But from now until August I will be keeping my posts private. (if I can figure out how) because.........





I'm Pregnant!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





Yep, God is Amazing!! So, I'm pretty sure I wrote on here maybe a month ago that I was done with the baby craziness. So we were taking a break till the end of the summer. Well, God had other plans and decided now was the time!!! I am aboslutely THRILLED!!!! :)





Let's see, last week I had numerous tummy aches - no big deal - I was trying not to let my brain convince me I was pregnant because, well, my brain has played tricks on me before.


So, I asked John for a pregnancy test Thursday night...see, during the pregnancy craziness I would take tests too early just to satisfy myself. So, most recently I've been giving the untaken tests to John to hide and he gives them to me when needed! :) So...he wouldn't give me a test. He wanted me to wait till Saturday (today). Well, I couldn't. So when I was at walmart on Friday I bought some! :)





I took one Friday (yesterday) afternoon, even though I know the morning pee is the best. It IMMEDIATELY came up positive! There was no mistaking it! I was beyond shocked I cried. I just sat there and cried...I was so happy and shocked! I thanked God then I immediately called my doctor.





I called to schedule an appointment - which is June 28 (our 2 year anniversary - assuming we are still pregnant by then I will be 7 weeks and we will hopefully get to see a little sac!) I also needed to get an appointment to start my Luperon shots. (which I'll explain more when I start them).





So I'm on the phone with the doctor when John walks in. He gets out a plate and begins to make himself something to eat. I go get my POSITIVE test, walk up behind him, and lay the test on his plate! LOL! He doesn't move and says, "I was going to eat off of that." LOL - then he turned around with a large smile on his face and says I already knew this! He says I've been different the last week and he knew. Poor guy, he's had to deal with a wife in the first few weeks of pregnancy 3 times already in the past year! He's gotten to the point where he can read me pretty well! :)





So anyways! We are pretty hopeful - we decided that's our word for excited. :) We can't really be excited yet because it's too heartbreaking if it doesn't last. So we are hopeful!! If I can just make it to the 28th I will be so thankful....none but the first pregnancy have made it past six weeks. SO, I'm praying to make it to the 28th and then further!





I'm excited to have a preggo buddy! My best friend Amy is pregnant - due December 28 with my second Godchild. :)





Overall, I'm just thrilled right now!! I just pray everything works out how we pray! :)

Since I don't know what date will be given when I actually post these I'll be putting the date on these! :) LOL 6/12/2010

OH! I forgot to say, I'll be 5 weeks on Monday. (you can tell why it was an instant positive huh :) ) and our estimated due date (by my calculation) would be Feb 14, 2011!! Valentine's Day!! :)

Thanks for sharing in my joy!!


God Bless,


Jenna





Dear Lord,


Thank you so much for the blessing of being pregnant. You and I know how hard this road has been for John and I. I thank you for answering our prayers! Lord, I pray for safe keeping of this child. Please help nurture it and develop it! Help my body be a safe home for the little one until it is time for him/her to come out into the world healthy and grown! John and I want a little one to raise in your world. We want to use your word to help our home be a body of Christ - please help us always remember this. God you are amazing and always have our best intrest in your plan. Help John and I remember that as we begin our fourth pregnancy!


We love you and thank you for our little miracle!! In Jesus' name we pray. Amen

How Life Changes

In high school I hung out with many people. But four - recently re-adding a fifth, of us have stayed in touch. Every Christmas we have a "Taco Hut Christmas" which is a delicious restaurant back home. That is our traditional get together time - but we see each other other times throughout the year if we have time. I guess the most recent problem I've been struggling with is they are all still within an hour of Buhler. I see them get together and I'm a little sad that I am so far away. It bums me out that I'm not able to just get together whenever. But I now have my life here. 2 1/2 hours away from home.
Same with my family. After Memorial day weekend I had so much fun with my entire family that I wish I lived close by too - granted, my brother may be getting a job soon and actually moving closer to me!! :) SIGH - I guess it's fine - I can still go home which I guess is a blessing that I'm able to do that.

Another "life changing" thing is my attitude. Man life has been so much better since I haven't been obssessed with getting pregnant. Granted, it's still hard sometimes when I see other pregnant people - or like John and I went to the movies last night where *of course* the main characters were having a baby! LOL - I just have to laugh about it - what else is there to do?? :)

Summer has been going really well! I'm enjoying basically being able to do what I want as I want! :) I've so far gotten quite a few projects done! :) Sadly, I think summer is going to FLY by!! But that's alright....I guess! ;)

As for now, I need to go get ready - because John has asked me to go golfing with him today. In all reality, he will be golfing and I am going to tan while I watch him golf! :) But it's good time together!! :) Because I love my hubby!!

Enjoy your weekend!!!
Jenna

Memorial Day Weekend

My Memorial day weekend was Fantastic!!! I went home to spend time with my family. Let me explain our weekend through pictures!!
This is my niece Rebekkah! We started with a little free - coloring!


Then Bekkah's momma (my sister) bought her a new sprinkler! So Bekkah and her favorite Auntie decided to go running through it! Granted, Aunt Jenna wasn't prepared - so my clothes were soaked!

Styling with our Shades!!!

The Family having a BBQ in the backyard! From Left to Right: Andrew (my younger brother), Jami (my older sister), ME, Dad, Matt (my brother-in-law), Rebekkah (my niece), Mom. Only missing the love of my life - John. He stayed home to work and provide for me! :)

Family played some Croquet! We were on teams and Andrew and I won!!

Watermelon Break!!

Bekkah loves getting ready in the morning with me! She sits on the counter and "does her make-up and hair" while I do. This morning she decided to brush her teeth with me!

Bekkah's first experience driving!

Bekkah at the top of the BIG Tornado Slide!!

And now at the bottom.... :)

Bekkah and I sportin our Pink Shorts!

Sharing Popsicles!!

Overall, my weekend was fantastic! I love spending time with my family! We have a blast together! Usually either John or Matt are working - one of these days they will both be off and we'll have our ENTIRE family together!!

Happy June!! Hope it's a great month for ALL!!!!

Love,

Jenna