Begging God

June 16, 2010 10:41 a.m.



There was the smallest hint of blood today. I am BEGGING God to help this child be healthy! I am begging God to make the blood go away. I am trying not to freak out - any normal pregnant lady would not have noticed it. But knowing this is how it always starts..... But it was much less than any before so I'll pray and pray and continue to Beg God to grant me this child!



I have a friend who just had twins and they are in the NICU. Praise God they are doing well! I found myself this morning wishing I was even in her shoes. I know she is going through a hard time - and I shouldn't wish that but at least she has her babies!!



This morning I woke up and found a prayer in my inbox from a dear friend. I have only told my best friend and her husband sent me a prayer this morning. Praying for my unborn child. He said he felt like he needed to pray for us so he did. It is so reassuring to know they are praying as well!! I was just thinking last night that I wanted to tell EVERYONE just so I could have the prayers!! You know? And the sad thing is I'm not even publishing this post so even if someone stumbled across this they couldn't pray for me.



I just want this baby so bad!! Please God Please God Please God!!



Dear Lord,

Please, Please, Please, keep this baby healthy. Make the blood go away and continue to nurture this child! PLEASE bless John and I with this child. I cannot go through having to tell John again. I cannot go through it again. I know you only give us what we can handle but Lord I beg you to not make me go through this again. Please Lord! Lord, please settle my heart and calm my nerves. Help me trust in You and know that You will provide me with the strength I need. Lord, I pray again that you nurture my unborn child in my womb and continue to let it grow and survive! I pray all these things in Jesus' name. I love you. Amen.