"Ovulation" Week

This week has SUCKED! I hate the week that I am supposed to ovulate - I am the craziest person I know! And I HATE it! I realize that trying to have a baby works better when you aren't obsessed but what are you going to do?

This week I have felt like people have treated me poorly. Every idea I had at work was QUICKLY shut down - every time I felt pretty NO ONE commented/noticed. Crazy right? Not that people acted that way - but that my mind CONVINCED me this was happening. I'm sure nothing was different. But I was such a crazy wreck this week that's how I felt!!

I have wanted to cry like every day....I'm just so tired of it. I'm so tired of EVERYONE being pregnant. I'm so tired of EVERY t.v. show being about people wanting kids. Like I'm watching Grey's Anatomy right now and every couple is talking about kids. I'm tired of wishing I was pregnant. I'm tired of my medicine making me larger. I'm just tired. tired. tired. tired. tired. tired. tired. tired.

I don't want to feel this way anymore - I just want it to be over. I just want to be a mom. Please God, Please please please. I so badly want to be a mom. My heart aches and I can't take it anymore.